Micah’s Memoir
Stumbling Into Grace: The Adventures of a Transgender Shaman
What if your deepest unraveling was not your undoing—but your initiation?
Micah Schwader’s journey began with dissonance—a quiet ache of disconnection between body, voice, and soul. Raised in a world that offered no language for his truth, Micah walked a path of profound questioning.
What emerged was not a simple transition, but a sacred remembering.
From the collapse of identity and livelihood to visionary realms and ancestral communion, this memoir traces the spiral path of a transgender shaman reclaiming his essence.
Through shamanic journeying, ritual writing, and soul retrieval, Micah discovered that truth isn’t found—it is felt beneath the layers we’re taught to wear.
Stumbling Into Grace is not a roadmap—it’s a soul map. A raw, poetic chronicle of identity, spirit, and the sacred journey of becoming.
If you’ve ever felt like a stranger in your own life…
If you’ve stood at the edge of change, unsure how to cross…
If you’ve longed to remember who you were before the world told you who to be…
This book is your mirror.
Welcome to the in-between.
This is where to find grace.
“Stumbling Into Grace: The Adventures of a Transgender Shaman is outstanding! A profound storyteller, Micah Schwader’s words mesmerize and enchant, captivating the reader.
This book is filled with stories, journal entries, and messages from Micah’s spiritual guides, dreams, and inner knowing. His spiritual quests, both literal and figurative, interface and weave together as he authentically expresses his life to his readers.
Micah beautifully reveals how strategies of shamanism can lead you to higher enlightenment and bring forth a future that already exists and is waiting to be realized.
The outcome of his story contains AWE….
Stumbling Into Grace captures the essence of ancient wisdom in spell-binding stories relatable to anyone who has chosen to seek awareness of life’s mysteries and ask the hard questions about existence.”
“You won’t be able to put Stumbling Into Grace down. Micah Schwader shares his story in a compelling, beautifully written, and very intimate way.
His life journey is revealed through myriad pathways—family relationships, spiritual journeys, health challenges, and a personal lens through the spectrum of gender identity.
Vulnerable, poignant—I cried and laughed as I read it.”
“Micah is a true storyteller! His tale of heart-led perseverance is inspirational. Courageously facing oppression to discover the truth of who he is took an act of faith. Stumbling Into Grace shares his vulnerable journey toward liberation.”
A Journey of Identity, Shamanic Awakening, and Transformation
For much of my life, I moved through the world like a visitor in my own body—inhabiting a story that never felt like mine. I bore the weight of cultural expectation, the ache of concealment, and the silent grief of not belonging.
And then everything began to unravel.
Business collapse. Personal loss. Near-death experiences. Each one felt like disintegration—until I saw them for what they truly were: an initiation.
The unraveling wasn’t an ending. It was an opening…
Into the ancient path of shamanism.
Into the invisible world that had always been whispering.
Into the sacred art of soul retrieval.
As I followed this path, I learned to walk between realms. To reclaim fractured parts of self. To hear the language of spirit encoded in symbol and ceremony.
And as my gender identity, spiritual remembrance, and soul purpose converged, I discovered a deeper truth: I wasn’t becoming someone new. I was returning to who I’d always been.
This memoir is not just a personal story.
It is a soul map for anyone standing at the edge of transformation.
It is a testament to the sacred messiness of remembering.
To the wisdom found in collapse.
To the voice that emerges when we stop performing and start listening to our internal guidance.
If you’ve ever felt like a stranger in your own life—torn between identities, aching for truth, or unsure how to begin again—this book is for you.
What You’ll Receive in These Pages:
- A first-hand account of gender transition as spiritual initiation
- Shamanic visions, ancestral guidance, and soul retrievals that reframed my reality
- Ancient healing practices used to release trauma and restore coherence
- Lived lessons in resilience, surrender, and remembering who we truly are
Why This Book?
Because truth often arrives disguised as unraveling.
Because identity is more than choice—it is soul alignment.
Because healing is not about fixing what is broken—but remembering what is whole.
When we honor the story that has always been trying to emerge, we don’t just change.
We find grace.
“I couldn’t put it down. Stumbling Into Grace is absolutely beautiful and so touching. I cried and smiled through the whole book!”
“WOW! I loved reading this book! Micah Schwader writes so beautifully; a vivid storyteller. Stumbling Into Grace is an inspiring must read for anyone seeking their inner knowing and finding their way to joy.”